Just Want to Be His Lover

Chapter 46.2


Seeing that Gu Yanshu didn’t move from the front passenger seat, Shen Jue asked, “What’s wrong?”

Gu Yanshu maintained his composure. “Why did you bring me here?”


Shen Jue was about to ask where Gu Yanshu was referring to when he saw the bright hotel sign in front of him and came to a sudden realisation.


He chuckled softly and said, “It’s too late. The mall next door is already closed, so we can only park here. Don’t misunderstand anything… Hey, slow down. Wait for me. You’re going the wrong way. This is the safe passage. This way, watch your step. Don’t fall.”

Shen Jue couldn’t suppress the smile in his voice.

Gu Yanshu, on the other hand, was embarrassed and angry that he wished he could find a hole to hide in. He didn’t know what kind of strange things he had been thinking about all day long. And so, he simply stalked off quickly with his head lowered, not caring about where Shen Jue took him.

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Gu Yanshu finally couldn’t help but look at Shen Jue. “What are you doing?”


“I’m treating you to a movie.”

Of course you are. I’m not that silly.

“I’m asking why you’re suddenly inviting me to a movie.”

Because you didn’t get to see it earlier today.

However, Shen Jue knew that Gu Yanshu was shy and he didn’t want to expose him, so he said casually, “I heard the production team mention it today and remembered that this movie will be taken down in two days. If we don’t watch it now, we won’t be able to see it. So, I spoke to Ye Leng and got him to help us secure a private screening.”

Gu Yanshu frowned slightly. “It’s not like we can’t watch it online. There’s no need to go through so much trouble.”

“Of course it’s necessary.” Shen Jue tilted his head and met Gu Yanshu’s gaze, his tone uncooperative.

Gu Yanshu was about to ask another question, but Shen Jue said calmly, “I promised you in the past that if I win the Best Actor Award, I’ll book an entire hall and invite you to watch, and you can watch it as many times as you want. I can’t go back on my word.”

Shen Jue said it naturally, like it was a normal thing to do. At that moment, a stream of sourness surged into Gu Yanshu’s throat and he couldn’t speak.

Because this childish statement was indeed what Shen Jue had promised him before.

It was on the night of YOUNG’s official debut.

At that time, the two of them hadn’t experienced so much, and they both had the confidence and arrogance of youth, as well as endless hope for the future.


That day was the first time Gu Yanshu officially performed on stage. It was also the first time he heard so many people call his name and saw so many people go crazy because of their performance. This was the first time he felt that the stage had such charm, and the dream in his mind was infinitely magnified.

The teenage boy couldn’t hide his satisfaction and happiness, so he crawled into Shen Jue’s bed carefully and whispered into his ear, “Brother, I want to hold a concert at the Bird’s Nest [TL Note: Beijing National Stadium] in the future.”

For an idol who had just debuted, this was a dream that would be mocked if he said it out loud.

He only dared to tell Shen Jue.

And at that time, Shen Jue had rubbed his head and said with a smile, “Alright, we’ll hold a concert at the Bird’s Nest in the future. I’ll accompany you. Whenever you hold one, I’ll watch it.”

At that time, Gu Yanshu already knew that compared to the male idol group, Shen Jue actually liked acting more. The latter would probably be an actor in the future and wouldn’t be on the same path as him, but he didn’t want the two of them to drift apart one day.

At that time, he still didn’t know what he was thinking. He only knew that he wanted Shen Jue to be with him all the time, so he expressed his promise childishly. “Then, Brother, I want to be at the premiere of every movie you make in the future.”

Thinking about it now, he was really childish at that time.

Back then, Shen Jue also answered him like he was coaxing a child, smiling as he said, “Alright, when I get the Best Actor award in the future, I’ll book an entire theatre and invite you to watch my movie. You can watch it as many times as you want.”

At that time, Gu Yanshu was satisfied, but when he really held a concert in the bird’s nest, Shen Jue didn’t go.

That was why Gu Yanshu assumed that Shen Jue probably treated what he said at that time as a childish joke, just like those unknown feelings he had, which only he took seriously.

But it turned out that Shen Jue remembered.


Even after seven years, when no one mentioned it again, Shen Jue still remembered.

He wasn’t just patronising him, nor was he lying to him. He just went back on his word once in a while. 

Gu Yanshu lowered the visor of his cap to cover his face and the moisture in the corners of his eyes. He replied calmly, “Oh, I would have forgotten if you didn’t mention it.”

“Mm,” Shen Jue replied gently. “But I didn’t forget.”

It didn’t seem to matter if Gu Yanshu remembered it or not, so long as he, Shen Jue, remembered it.

He was so indulgent to Gu Yanshu, almost to the point of being unreasonable.

Gu Yanshu pulled his cap down even lower.

He tried his best to control his emotions and hide the sadness in his voice as he said calmly, “Didn’t you miss my concert at the Bird’s Nest anyway?”

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