Chapter 74.1: Ji Lin really wanted to tell Bai DuanDuan that he likes her and will never change.

“What’s good about being a good person? If I could always stay as a bad person, I would have married Xiaoxia in our own house, and maybe even have children.”

The harsh truth of the matter finally dawned on Bai DuanDuan and she knew what had changed Lin Hui.

And now, Lin Hui no longer resembled the energetic and ambitious partner he once was. He was now a pitiful and destitute middle-aged man.

He looked at Bai DuanDuan and sighed, “I’m not a purely good person, but Duan Duan, I’m not as bad as you think. Regarding the matter with Ji Lin, I really just didn’t want you to get hurt from the bottom of my heart. I know how much Ji Lin hates me, and I don’t want you to be like Xiaoxia, involved and used as a tool for his revenge against me.”

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No one can guarantee that they will never make mistakes in their lifetime. Lin Hui was wrong in the case of Ji Lin’s father, but he could make amends in many ways. He had indeed done so. However, when his actions were struck down and frustrated, Lin Hui chose to surrender to life without hesitation.

“You think you were wrong, but you made amends. However, your atonement not only did not bring rewards, but it also brought disaster. So you felt wronged, resentful, and felt that you were also a victim. Therefore, you completely overturned your own values and felt it was better to go with the flow and be a bad person. You easily took this path, even though it was clearly to make your own life more comfortable, to find excuses for your own depravity, and to choose an easier path!”

“When you feel sorry for Ji Lin, you choose to send him money and think that it is redemption. But does Ji Lin want your money? If it were you, would seeing that money make you feel less resentful or more humiliated? Throughout, you have never had the courage to face Ji Lin directly and apologize to him properly.”

Bai DuanDuan looked at Lin Hui and said, “Yes, you are very pitiful, but isn’t Ji Lin pitiful too? You were already in your twenties when you lost sister Xiaoxia, at least you were an adult with a stable job, but Ji Lin was only thirteen when he lost his father and even had to bear a huge debt.”

“Moreover, you keep saying that you love Sister Zhaoxia, and it was because of her death that you became like this. But what about Du Xinyi? Is it just because she has a similar face to Sister Zhaoxia that you’re attracted to her?”

Lin Hui stuttered as if he wanted to defend himself, but Bai DuanDuan didn’t give him the chance. She continued, “Don’t talk to me about redemption. Because you couldn’t give Sister Zhaoxia the best, you want to make up for it by looking at this face. But I ask you, can she compare to Sister Zhaoxia? Is she worthy? She has a dark and dirty heart, no ability but enjoys internal strife. She doesn’t have the basic professional ethics of a legal practitioner, nor does she have the professional morals she should have. You know what she does in the office, but you choose to turn a blind eye and allow it to happen. So is this your love for Sister Zhaoxia? Is this your pain? When you see Du Xinyi having a face similar to Sister Zhaoxia’s to do these things every day, don’t you feel nauseous?”

“Ji Lin has suffered as much as you have, but has he become like you, going with the flow and becoming a bad person without any psychological burden? Has he changed? He hasn’t.”

“Not everyone who experiences something like you will necessarily become like you, blaming themselves and turning into a bad person. Even if it’s painful, Ji Lin has never changed.”

…….

“Teacher Lin, let me ask you one last time. Even if you could turn back time and according to your current understanding, you kept being a bad person and never helped the disadvantaged with public interest cases, do you really think Sister Zhaoxia would have lived happily ever after with you, having children? She liked you because you were a kind person. If she knew you had become like this, she would never have been with you. She would have left decisively and married a truly kind person, not someone like you.”

Bai DuanDuan paused for a moment and said, “Because you simply don’t deserve it!”

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After finishing a long meeting, Ji Lin returned to Sheng Lin, it was not yet time to leave work, and he thought that he might miss dinner with Bai DuanDuan as she was probably still at the office. However, to his surprise, the meeting ended earlier than expected.

But contrary to his expectations, Bai DuanDuan was not at the office, and it was actually Rong Sheng who had returned from a business trip in Tianjin. Although he didn’t know where she had gone, Ji Lin found a large bag of twisted dough sticks that he had brought back on his desk.

Bai DuanDuan likes to eat this kind of deep-fried, sweet and high-calorie food. Without thinking, Ji Lin put away the twisted dough sticks and planned to bring his own bag to her tonight.

He picked up his phone and called Bai DuanDuan, but no one answered.

Finally, Wang Fangfang, who was delivering files and materials to his office, pointed him in the right direction: “Is partner Ji looking for Duan Duan?”

Ji Lin glanced at her and nodded.

“Duan Duan said she had something to do just now and went to the Webox restaurant downstairs.” Wang Fangfang looked at her phone, “But she’s been there for a while. I just called her and she didn’t answer. Maybe she’s talking to a client and hasn’t had time to answer.”

Reason told Ji Lin to wait patiently in the office, but emotions made him involuntarily step out of Sheng Lin. When he realized it himself, he was already standing at the door of Webox.

Ji Lin comforted himself that if Bai DuanDuan was meeting a client, he wouldn’t disturb her. He just wanted to see her. They had been in meetings for so long, and he hadn’t seen her for a long time. Besides, what kind of client would take up so much of Bai Duanduan’s time? If she encountered any difficulties in professional consultation, he could help solve them on the way… Anyway, he just wanted to take a look…

This restaurant is the one owned by Ji Lin and Bai DuanDuan’s neighbor upstairs. Sure enough, when he saw Ji Lin, the non-mainstream neighbor greeted him.

“Hey! Bro! You’re here too! Your leg has completely recovered recently! I see you are doing great!” The neighbor poked his head out in a familiar manner, “But maybe you shouldn’t come to our restaurant to eat.”

Ji Lin was a little confused.

The neighbor kindly explained in a low voice: “Your tigress wife just brought a man to the private room here.” He hinted, “I’m just reminding you, maybe you should go to another restaurant. I’m afraid your wife will see you and then…”

“I’m here to find her.”

As soon as these words were spoken, the neighbor’s expression became even more dramatic. Just as Ji Lin was about to enter, the neighbor stopped him again, saying, “Brother, you can say I’m nosy or whatever, but I just can’t bear it. You’re a talented person, why put up with this? Did your wife run away with someone else? Is the man who came with her today her new lover? I saw that man is much older and he seemed very obedient to your wife. Yet she didn’t even hit him!”

Obviously, the non-mainstream neighbor had been influenced by low-quality TV dramas, and this small detail had already formed a complete eight o’clock drama in his mind. He continued, “Brother, I really know that you may have Stockholm Syndrome, been abused for so long, and just fell in love with her. But listen to me, leave her, and you’ll live a better life! Domestic violence only happens zero or infinite times! If this woman has found someone else, then she’s gone… “

Ji Lin was too lazy to explain, he just smiled and said, “It’s okay, I just like her that way.”

The non-mainstream neighbor’s face showed an indescribable expression, but he still kindly led the way, “It’s the No. 3 private room at the end of the hallway. But brother, I’m really telling you this out of sympathy, I shouldn’t be leaking client’s privacy, so don’t rush in and start fighting with them… and you won’t be able to beat that woman either…”

Ji Lin didn’t care about these things, he just nodded at the neighbor and walked towards the end of the hallway on his own.