CHAPTER 51

It’s been a little while after Gu Yan left before I can finally move my heavy body.

I’m in a very bad mood, the worst I’ve felt since I entered the Absolute Wing Hall, and I’ve never felt this way before. I walk in the direction of the dormitory with a disorganized pace. I’m so absent-minded that I don’t even remember who has greeted me along the way, it’s all hazy to me.

—Am I hurting Gu Yan?

Taking out the key to my dormitory room, I sigh deeply.

—How awful! For no reason, I feel so damned!

I should have apologized to Gu Yan, but— “I don’t want to see you tonight” Gu Yan said this instead. The first time I heard that rejection, especially a refusal that came from his mouth, I felt so shocked and my heart twinged in pain.

I sigh again and just about to insert the key when I realize that the door is not locked, and the dim light of the room is showing through the thin crack of the door.

Did I leave the door unlocked and the lights on when I left the room? Impossible, I remember I did… Ah! Could it be— Gu Yan?

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“Why? Of course it’s because of Josh… You know what? Josh, who has always been well-behaved and obedient, quarreled with me about you!” Li’s hand tightens that I’m almost out of breath, “He threatened me to leave you alone otherwise I would die! I don’t give a damn about my life! But what is it about you that is so great? To have Josh go to such lengths for you, more than he did for me!”

“I think you’re already an obstacle between Josh and I.”

Li loosens the hand that is holding my neck. I cough uncomfortably, but before I can even catch my breath, a cold metallic object suddenly presses up against my cheek— it’s a fruit knife.

I huff back, “How did you get that knife?”

“Oh, this knife ah, I asked Yi OuMu to steal it.” Li lightly pokes the tip of the knife at my face, and its slight stinging sensation makes my whole back numb in distraught.

So it’s not an illusion, the figure I saw in the kitchen that time is truly Yi OuMu, and the lost thing being searched for in the kitchen this morning was stolen by Yi OuMu!

“Do you want to kill me?” My eyes widen, the fear causing my vision to lapse.

“What do you think— I will never allow a barrier to exist between Josh and I.” After that, I watch as Li raises the knife in his hand. The air and the surrounding sounds seem to have been frozen still for a moment, all except for the tearing sound of the blade tip penetrating my skin and plunging into the side of my shoulder.

It hurts, it hurts so much that cold sweat takes over my body.

“This cut is to torture you, but the next cut will be a pierce in your heart.” Li smiles, his water-like long black hair drooping down on body, stained with a little bright red blood from my shoulder.

“Don’t…”

I try raising my hands, but they are suppressed by Li, who presses the hilt and presses the blade a few more points deeper. Oppressed by the piercing pain, I can’t speak, my throat can only hiss a dying struggle as tears gush out from my eyes.

It hurts! It really hurts— I’m really going to die!

“Gu… Yan…” I cry out two syllables, only to trigger a mockery from Li.

“Want to ask Gu Yan for help again? But I”m telling you, there’s no way Gu Yan will come to your rescue this time.” Li’s eyes grow even colder, “Gu Yan is just as much of a hindrance as you are! How dare he threaten me to hurt my Josh! This is something I can’t stand! You and him, both must be eradicated!”

Li reverses his grip on the hilt and slowly draws it outward, deliberately stirring me up inside. With his movements, scalding blood gradually dyes my uniform into a heavy iron gray.

“Nuo La and Yi OuMu have already went to Gu Yan… These two people are indeed useless when they are taken apart, but they are more or less threatening to Gu Yan if they are put together. After being humiliated by Gu Yan so many times, Nuo La, after suffering so many humiliations from Gu Yan, is almost holding the mindset of going all out. You know, people who are not afraid of dying are very scary.”

Li’s words make me feel panic. Is Gu Yan in danger?

“Gu Yan, it’s impossible… to be knocked down by those two guys.” My lips tremble from further pain.

“Impossible? Nuo La who is not afraid of death is terrifying, but also, sometimes, people who are afraid of death are even more alarming— like Yi OuMu…” Li pulls the knife completely away from my shoulder, a stream of hot blood surges over my shoulders as it overflows unblocked, which makes Li laugh even more happily, “Did you know? Yi OuMu stole not only this knife, there is another one in his hands. No matter how powerful Gu Yan is,, after all, he is a body of flesh and blood. As long as Yi OuMu seizes a little opening and pierces the tip of the knife towards his heart… He will eventually turn into a puddle of corpse water.”

“No… No…” I yell incoherently.

There is only one thought echoing in my mind— I can’t let Gu Yan leave me! I need him!

“This is not something you can say no to.” Li’s gleaming red eyes are pulsing with madness. He stretches out his red tongue and licks the blood-stained knife, relishing it with a slurp, “The next cut will be made into your heart.”

I stare at the sharp knife with bated breath.

I can’t die! There are still people who need me— Xiao Cheng needs me, and at the same time, Gu Yan also needs me!

“Let Josh know that you and his parents were killed the same way, so he won’t let anyone else approach him and try to leave my side! This is so delightful!” Li smiles divinely but also devilishly, akin to a demon from hell.

Just as Li raises the knife and aims it at my heart to pierce, a force rips his entire body backwards.

The person who pulls Li away from me is a yellow-haired teenager with a face full of anger, horror, and sadness—

“Josh…” I call out the name of the teenager with a pale face.

“Li! How can you do this! This is the second time! Are you really trying to force me to this point!” Josh loses control and pins Li to the ground, pulling him by the collar, “As soon as you disappeared, I knew something wasn’t right, but I thought you had a conscience! I didn’t expect to find out that you are really here to kill Brother Ye ShiJiu!”

“Josh, we have to get rid of him, he is an obstacle between us!”

“No! He’s not!”

“He is! He’s getting in the way of you loving me, trying to draw your attention away! “Li howls like a madman.

“No, I don’t love you at all! Li!”

“How could it be— obviously you were the one who came to love me first, and now I love you more than anything else…” Li said, his tone then turns straight up into a billowing rage, “It must be that guy who said something that confuses you, right? That’s why you said such disorderly words…”

“Go away! I must kill him!”

Li shoves Josh away, but Josh jumps up again. The two violently tug on each other. I want to step forward to help, but my every move involves a piercing pain from my shoulder. Even breathing has become difficult.

“Li!” Josh rushes at Li to the point that Li’s hand subconsciously lowers itself to prevent Josh from hurting. Josh grabs this opportunity to snatch the knife from Li’s hand, and moves him to the ground with all his might, “Don’t force me! I will really kill you! “

Josh locks the knife aloft in their head in agitation.

Both Li and I are stunned for a few seconds from Josh’s actions, but afterwards, Li’s laugh echoes loudly.

“Josh, you can’t kill me. If you kill me, it means you’ve really killed someone, with blood on your hands, just like I did when I killed your parents— are you sure you want to be a real murderer?”

Josh’s whole body trembles violently because of Li’s words, and I can’t see what kind of expression is on his face with his back facing me at that moment.

“Oh Josh, you have been mine all your life. You must also follow me for the rest of your life. This is destiny. You cannot and do not have the ability to resist it. You can only obey… Come on, give me the knife so I can remove the thing that stands between us.” Li spread his hands to Josh, to take the knife in what looks like a welcoming embrace.

“No— No—!”

Josh roars akin to a mournful beast, and the knife he holds high above comes crashing down in agitation. Within the deadly silence, the knife pierces and stabs into Li’s chest smoothly, burying deeply.

I hear a soft sigh, yet I do not know who it came from.

“Josh, how could you do this to me? You abandoned me…” Li’s weak voice floats in the air before disappearing all at once.

“I’m not abandoning you, Li. After meeting you and getting acquainted with you, I have long been obligated to you, even if everything is involuntary… I will not abandon you.” Josh says faintly, his back appearing very thin and desolate.

“Josh, don’t do anything stupid—” Josh’s words give me a sudden foreboding feeling.

“Brother Ye ShiJiu, this is how I will take my responsibility, there is no other way— please grant me my last request!” Josh’s face turns slightly, his resolute face reveals how much he has grown from his youth up to now. Within the depths of his eyes appear all his heartbreaking acceptance and resignation, “Please help me take care of my sister, her name is Ju— Xiao Ju.”

“Josh!”

“Li, I will stay with you, because I have a responsibility on you.” Josh whispers to Li. He pulls out the knife from Li’s chest, and as the blood drips and overflows, he grips the knife stained with Li’s blood and pierces himself in the chest—

“Josh!”

I yell at the top of my lungs as hot liquid comes raining down on my face, I couldn’t stop it.

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T/N: What a way of my comeback (ಥ﹏ಥ). Poor Josh… This definitely broke my heart more than any other chapter did.