After we finished our meal, Yang Xiongwei bluntly told us that our relationship was too complicated and too messy. He simply couldn’t comprehend it. His wife acted much more maturely, smoothing out the wrinkles of his shirt while telling him, “Every relationship has its own reasons for existing. You are allowed not to comprehend it but you can’t express your opinion on other people’s lives.”
In the end, I added Chen Xie to my contact list and promised that if we were both free in the future, we could get our nails done together. I originally even wanted to ask where she was living so that Yu Haiqiao could send her off on the way in passing.
Inside the car, Yu Haiqiao put on a cold face and rejected my proposition, “It’s not convenient.”
He rarely had such a bad temper. I chatted with Chen Xie by the car and turned to look at him. Chen Xie giggled, “Yu Haiqiao, your temper is as bad as always. Nevermind, I’ll just hail a taxi back.”
She then waved her hand and bade me goodbye, turning around to leave. I was still thinking about how Yu Haiqiao showed me a dog face the whole day but was gentle and polite to other people. Chen Xie commented that Yu Haiqiao’s temper sure was bad and even though Yu Haiqiao was no good, this was one point that I didn’t agree with wholeheartedly. In any case, after knowing him for such a long time, he had never once thrown a tantrum with me.
I turned around and got into the back of the car. Yu Haiqiao glanced at me through the rearview mirror and didn’t tell me to go sit in front like he usually did. He started the car and asked, “Where to now?” His voice was extremely calm, unlike his usually playful tone.
This guy really might be in a bad mood right now.
I also maintained my calm and replied, “Home.” I then calmly added, “If you’re busy with something else, you can let me off here and I’ll hail a cab home.”
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Zw Tykikys pyke, “Zsw jdso obyv R’x vyzjkdt ycswv. Ohlau vkxl R vau vs vyzj vs usw, usw oswze vokpv xu osaep yde qsanl zstkn. Zsw nzlyazu wdelapvyde cwv usw ralvlde dsv vs. Ps usw vbkdj ralvldekdt vs cl ewxc xyjlp usw kddsnldv?”
I leaned back and couldn’t help shaking my leg, “Then does speaking in a sloppy manner make you feel that you’re specially humorous and witty?”
Yu Haiqiao said, “Would it kill you to admit defeat? Why do you always have to turn everything into a win or lose fight? If you argue with others, you have to win. If you have a verbal fight with me, you have to win. If I angered you, you would anger me back. Why are you so petty? What are you trying to fight me for? Fine, you win. Do you want a trophy to go with it huh?!”
“Yu Haiqiao, I’ll throw those words back at you. Do you think the country is gonna happily give you a trophy for saying such scummy words to me everyday?” I said.
“…..“ Yu Haiqiao stayed silent for a while, “When you’re justified, you’d never spare the other person and even when you’re not justified, you would somehow find a preposterous argument.”
I remained silent, and felt bored. I had known Yu Haiqiao for more than 20 years and in his eyes, I realized that I was nothing but a woman who had a strange temper, twisted words and forced logic and a person who didn’t spare anyone when she felt justified.
How meaningless.
In my eyes, he only had two things going for him, his looks and his height.
I didn’t speak for a long time when Yu Haiqiao piped up again, “In the summer of our second year of senior high, everyone was having remedial classes at school. You said there wasn’t any air con in the classroom and the fan’s wind didn’t reach where you sat so you shaved your head to a flattop because of the heat. In such a school, only you sported a nearly bald head to school every day. In the end, didn’t you get scolded by your mom and nearly forbidden from entering your home? And you say you’re not weird?”
Oh, I know. In Yu Haiqiao’s eyes, if someone wasn’t in conformity with the rest, they would be called weird. No wonder he remembered the odd Yang Xiongwei so clearly, it was because in the nerd Yu Haiqiao’s eyes, this dumb troublemaking student was weird. After so many years, I realized I had thought too highly of Yu Haiqiao. The Chad must’ve really thought that he was helping the poor by marrying me. After all, he still remembered that someone scored 40 something points in the college entrance exams and would even scoff about it with me. My math scores were also quite poor, so in Yu Haiqiao’s eyes, it must’ve only strengthened his belief of helping the poor.
Yu Haiqiao: “When we were graduating from senior high, I asked which university you applied to. You said that it was convenient to go to the local universities since you can go home and have your meals there. Did you think you were funny?”
When I was in senior high, there were a lot of things I said without thinking so I didn’t remember such a matter. The reason why I applied to a local university was naturally because my scores weren’t good enough and it was easier to get enrolled into a local university.
On the other hand, because he thought it more convenient to go home on the weekends despite having good grades, he also enrolled in a university in the local city, so what right did he have to use this point to condemn me?
“In university, you told me you decided that you’ll have a DINK(1) in the future. At that time, I didn’t even know what DINK1DINK means double income, no kids. meant. It was only when I got back home and searched it up that I learned what it meant. Shi Ran, will you only be happy if you’re different from others?” Yu Haiqiao asked me in the dimly lit car.
I reached out a hand and grabbed my bag, preparing to get out of the car and leave. I’ve known Yu Haiqiao for so many years, putting aside our feelings since it couldn’t be clarified being the mess that it is and labelling it as “friends’ was too simple, there were probably no lovers who bickered like we did. But at the very least, I thought this guy would have at least understood me. Now that I think about it, this feeling was probably the most absurd misconception I had in this world. At this moment, he was calling me out for being an attention-seeker. Perhaps it was during the meal when I told Shu Qin and Chen Xie about the matter of having an open relationship that he started thinking of me like this. I also felt amused yet at the same time, faintly felt an indescribable disappointment on the inside. This disappointment gave me an even greater feeling of despair from finding out the possibility that ‘Yu Haiqiao had always liked Chen Xie and was planning to get together with her’. I felt that all the bonds I had with Yu Haiqiao had been severed at this very moment.
I relied on our familiarity, relied on having 20-30 years of tacit understanding and living together for 3 years, because we mutually understood each other, which was why we were able to maintain a balance in our chaotic daily life. Now that Yu Haiqiao began to make fun of my attitude towards life, making fun of my actions, he was actually revealing his dissatisfaction with me. He really thought that marrying me was helping the poor.
Perhaps it was indeed because I didn’t understand him enough. At that time, when we got our marriage certificate printed at the bureau, the words he uttered may have come from the bottom of his heart. He might have really thought from his heart—— ‘Shi Ran, Nobody wants you at the age of 27 and I also don’t want to be tied down by marriage so we should help each other out. You’re also a DINK, who in this age wouldn’t want to give birth to kids after marriage? What if your parents or your partner’s parents want to hug their grandchild?”’
I sat inside the dark car for a while. Yu Haiqiao also didn’t speak up for a long time after his words. After a while, he calmly told me, “I have to go for the business trip tomorrow and won’t be coming back for half a month.”
Sitting in the back seat, I let out an “Oh” in response.
Yu Haiqiao turned his head but with such dim lights, I doubt he’d be able to see anything. He turned his head back and asked as though nothing had ever happened, “Should we go home? Do you wanna watch a movie in the afternoon?”
I didn’t reply. Yu Haiqiao pulled out his car keys and opened the door. The lights in the parking lot were particularly dim, the yellow lights spilling onto the driver’s seat. Yu Haiqiao acted like his usual self and undid his seat belt, asking in a leisurely tone, “Let’s go. Are you full from lunch or do you want to cook something else at home?”
He put one foot out of the car, his voice still lax, “I heard Yang Xiongwei say that the new movie that’s just been released was quite good. Let’s go watch it in the afternoon.”
I spoke up. “Yu Haiqiao.”
He hadn’t even gotten out of the car and had answered with an “En”.
“Do you only know how to pretend that everything is going well in your life, that whatever happened a while ago didn’t happen in just one second?”
Yu Haiqiao remained seated in the driver’s seat and turned to look at me after hearing my words. The light wasn’t too bright so I couldn’t see the expression on his face clearly. I could only hear the innocence in his words, “I made you angry again, didn’t I? How can I make it up this time?”
I pursed my lips in the back of the car and realized that in his context, I was the unreasonable, irrational one. Always getting inexplicably angry. I thought this was just a harmless joke in our lives but he thought that I was truly angry. I thought that we were operating on the same long-term channel but it actually wasn’t true. I even felt a bit amused, saying, “In your eyes, I’m a terrible person with no other redeemable qualities nor merits. From behavior to personality to living, each aspect of me is terrible.”
Yu Haiqiao’s head was still turned to my direction and he tried to lighten up the mood with me, “Not really.”
I responded, “At least you were honest. Otherwise, I would’ve thought that I looked like a fairy that descended from heaven to you.”
Yu Haiqiao chuckled with a low voice, “You think too much.”
I naturally knew I was thinking too much and didn’t need his reminder. I asked, “Do you still remember a few years ago when we went to get our certificate printed at the bureau? At that time, before we each went back to our jobs, what did you tell me in the car?”
“….” Yu Haiqiao responded, “I said a lot of things.”
I said, “At that time, you said I didn’t have the right to care about your love life, that once we found our true love, we would file for a divorce.”
“….” Yu Haiqiao was silent for a long time before he finally uttered with a dubious tone, “What do you mean?”
Today, he had asked me this question countless times.
Afterwards, I continued to reply him, “Exactly what I said.”
KMH – TOC for advanced chapters [Complete]
This chapter made me cry. YH is seriously so trash, how can he say those things and then act like nothing happened? Then he acts, “oh I made you mad now” That’s not a normal or healthy habit because then resentment builds up and explodes eventually. Throughout the novel, SR is holding in her feelings and words leading her to act the way she’s acting presently. I hope my girl SR divorces him and finds a GOOD man but I know that’s highly unlikely. Thanks for the chapter, I’m really enjoying the novel :3
YH and SR relationship is so toxic😭 but seriously how does YH say stuff like that to her and completely switch up the next second?? SR runnn😭😭
What he said was really too much, and then he proceeded to act like nothing happened, really now?
Thank you for the chapter!
Well, I too feel that her anger and disappointment is totally justified. She is practically a saint for not punching him in the face and going off the rails at him!